"Richard Cory" -Edward Arlington Robinson 1897

'Whenever Richard Cory went downtown,
We people on the pavement looked at him:
He was a gentleman from sole to crown,
Clean-favored and imperially slim.

And he was always quietly arrayed,
And he was always human when he talked;
But still he fluttered pulses when he said,
"Good morning," and he glittered when
he walked.

And he was rich - yes, richer than a king -
And admirably schooled in every grace:
In fine, we thought that he was everything
To make us wish that we were in his place.

So on we worked, and waited for the light,
And went without the meat, and cursed
the bread;
And Richard Cory, one calm summer night,
Went home and put a bullet through his head."

 

I know I haven't written for a whole eternity. Well..at least it feels like that! :P It's just that nothing really bad has happened, and I have nothing to whine about I suppose :D Hehe...that should be good...I suppose!

Anyway! I've found so many cool forums at once that it's mad! I still go to the EWFN forum, then Odorf to Frodo, JB.org, and a few days ago I found a really cool SeaQuest community! :D It's called New Cape Quest. Coolness :D It takes a whooole while to go through all of them almost every day! It's like you look at the time. It's..say 9am...then after I'm done with the forums and look at the time, it's like 11am! Well that's minimum :P Cra-zay :P

Basically...everything's fine now. Plus I'm gonna get  a new and improved bank card in a few days. Woohhoo..

That was a short post. I'm just too lazy to write a longer one right now + the last one was enough for a whole month! :P Just kidding :P
Cya!

I put a song on here a few days ago. It should be playing if your speakers are on. 'This Ride' by Starting Line. I love that song..and I relate to it. I'll post the lyrics here:

it says hold on and take this ride
and set aside
memories of all the times
when you collide
then you'll leave me here to die
heres the things i meant
but never said

it says sit back and take the time
to lose your mind
and find out what its like to die
so wheres my spine
when its time to give an obvious and simple reason why
i wont write again

what do you see
when you look at me
do you take me for a fool

so what makes you play this game
with results always the same
and nothing but bad reputations to gain
it speaks to me like all is fine
and i could cry
from all the bends and breaks that i
took this time
when happieness is based on lies
its so hard its too hard to tell the truth

what do you see
when you look at me
do you take me for a fool
this fool is through

- - - - -

Now I'm gonna change it to 'Why Not' by Hilary Duff. It's a great song + I love the lyrics. They're SO true.

You think you're going nowhere
when your walking down the street
acting like you just don't care
when life could be so sweet

Why you wanna be like that
As if there's nothing new
You're not fooling no one
You're not even fooling you

So walk a little slower
And open up your eyes
Sometimes it's so hard to see
The good things passing by

There may never be a sign
No flashing neon light
Telling you to make your move
Or when the time is right

(So) why not (why not)
Take a crazy chance
Why not (why not)
Do a crazy dance
If you lose the moment
You may lose a lot
So why not
Why not

(Why not take a crazy chance)
(Why not take a crazy chance)

You always dress in yellow
When you wanna dress in gold
Instead of listening to your heart
You do just what you're told

You keep waiting where you are
For what you'll never know
So let's just get into your car
And go baby go

(So) why not (why not)
Take a crazy chance
Why not (why not)
Do a crazy dance
If you lose the moment
You may lose a lot
So why not
Why not

Oooooh I could be the one for you
Oooh yeah maybe yes maybe no
Oooooh it could be the thing to do
What I'm saying is
You gotta let me know-oh oh

oh ah ai ya ai ya ai yah yai
oh ah ai ya ai ya ai yah yai

You'll never get to heaven
Or even to L.A.
If you don't believe there's a way

Why not (why not)
Take your star from the sky
Why not
Spread your wings and fly

Oh! it might take a little
And it might take a lot
But why not
Why not

Why not (take a crazy chance)
Take a crazy chance
Why not (do a crazy dance)
Do a crazy dance
If you lose the moment
You may lose alot
So why not
Why not

I mean every single word. In my opinion..life's short. So we should make the best of it, right? Make our dreams come true and so on. After all, you can do anything you set your mind to ;) But everyone has their own way of living, and their own opinions. For instance, I'd probably die if I had a job where I had to do the same things every single day. Routine..ughh..gives me shivers. I can't enjoy a job if I'm not interested in it. I wanna see the woorld. lol! Really, I wanna travel alot.

Y'know what's funny? It's funny how a friendship that lasted for 3,5 years..just vanished. It didn't take much time. A day max. Just..*pooff* and it was gone! How is it possible to lose a best friend like that? Makes me think if she even was my best friend. Maybe I just imagined her? An imaginary friend? lol..nah..
We had so much in common. At least that's what I thought. I mean..she still exists..her body and everything, but it feels like it's not her anymore. My best friend is gone :( Maybe her body's been taken by aliens? Actually it's not funny at all...
I feel kinda numb. I still make fun with other people. Which is weird. I mean..I should be devastated. I am..kind of. But I guess I don't show it out. I block this feeling somewhere inside. I should let it out though. Dunno how to :S I act like everything would be fine.I dunno why.
It's like this 3,5 years just disappeared. Like it didn't even exist. Maybe I'm still 14? Maybe it was just a dream/nightmare? *checking the calendar* Nope...*sigh*..
Suddenly she just has a different mind. A different personality. I hate this...I really do. I want my best friend back! But I doubt I ever will. I think she's forgotten about my existance already. Oh well..She didn't even say goodbye...

Someone said 'whatever happens, happens for a reason'. Sooo...what did that happen for? *raising an eyebrow* Whatever...

I braided my hair the other day, and yesterday I let my hair loose. Got curls. It looked really cool :D I love curls :)
Anyway..enough for now! Happy happy joy joy! Life's short! Can't waste any time for being sad or anything!

I found a quote from a movie i like:
"I was just thinking, that this is gonna be okay. I mean this is exactly the ultimate experiment, isn't it. But I'm sure something will happen and I'll get out okay. But if it doesn't then at least it will answer all my questions about death." (Lucas in "Dead End")
"Seaquest DSV"

Well! I had quite a busy weekend. A friend of mine had a b-day party on Saturday evening. I went to buy her a present with another friend and we ran into some other people when we were shopping :P Anyway..then we went on and finally got a decent gift! Earrings..really cool..I picked them :D Plus some candy with cherry liqure or smth. We got to the pub at about 9pm. I actually wanted to get there 8pm, and thought I'd leave 10ish cause I had to go to another b-day the next day(Sunday). But lets just say I didn't leave at 10pm. I left at 1.30am or smth. Ohh! And 'Cubalibra' is officially my new fave alcoholic drink ;) We tried quite alot of them..Beach..Russian Vodka..Tequila Sunshine. Can't remember all the names. But Cubalibra was THE best :)

Well I just tried to upload the animation I made here but it took WAAAY too long too load. So if you wanna see it then it's HERE !

Ooohhh!! I just made something in paint shop! Gabs was gonna teach me something but had to go offline, so I tried to make something on my own. And this is what came out of it! Tell me watcha think!

Y'know I just did a real thing on PSP! I've fiddled with stuff before..like effects and stuff. But today Gabs taught me how to put 2 pictures together and all that. I mean..it probably seems really easy, but I never really knew how to do that! *feeling dumb*
Anway! I'll post my 1st real PSP job here! Thanx for helping me Gabs! =)

I dunno why this always seems to happen to me. Do I give out a vibe or something that screams 'Betray me! Lie to me! Hide things from me!' ? Sometimes I really think I do. Every person I've ever trusted in my life has betrayed me..in one way or another. It's kinda hard to live your life when you don't have anyone to talk to your problems about. It can drive you crazy when you keep everything inside.
It happened again yesterday. I swear it's the last time I trusted anyone. I don't even wanna listen to what they have to say. I'm tired of this. I just don't wanna hear any of this.

I was listening to some of my CD-s last night and this song is alot how I feel right now. I changed a few words to make it suit better.

There are people
Who say what you wanna hear
Even on a rainy day
They tell you the sky is clear

Always, forever
All the things she said
Never say never
Those simple lies that she fed
I will never leave you
All the love I thought she had
But can you blame me
No
Cuz that's what she said

And there are people who
Say what they really mean
She said she'd always be there
She said she'd always care
But just when you think that you can trust that someone you care for
Tell me
Well how do you know
How stars can fall from above

Cause you made promises
That you couldn't keep
But you're not hurting yourself
You're only hurting me
Why would you say things
That you really didn't mean
How can I make you see
Just what you did to me

You said how much
You really cared
Just when I thought it was all okay
How could you dare
If I were you I could not
Lie even once
To the face of the one
That I care about so much